When i got the email below, my heart started thumping. It was such a rush that i couldn't finish it in one reading.
But, it also caused a little panic. i am a compulsive masturbator (like any red-blooded American male). and i know only too well from previous experience that when i can't cum, i get desperate. i can't concentrate at work, i can't relax at home, i can't think about anything else.
In a few moments, the panic passed, and a deep sense of completion overcame me. i felt like my dick was no longer mine. She had taken total control. As this feeling sunk in, Her dick started getting hard.
i masturbated last night in bed before going to sleep, and it was perfect. i fantasized about the usual topics, living as Her slave, as Her dog, etc. but it was so much more erotic than ever before. Masturbating at Her direction, under Her control, is a whole different experience. The event is an particularly dramatic expression of Her sexual power, Her domination over me. And somewhere along the line the act of submission has become completely eroticized for me. i've read that with $30,00o and ten years of therapy i might be able to re-program myself, but what exactly would be the point of that?
It wasn't hard to keep from cumming, though it was impossible to masturbate without stopping frequently to avoid it.
The next morning (this morning as i write) i wanked in the shower for the required time, and Her dick was startlingly hard. The last time i had jerked-off was two days ago on Saturday (and i had been looking forward to jerking off Sunday night just before i got Her email). Again, it wasn't hard to avoid cumming, but i had to stop frequently and think about something else.
All day today (my first full day with Her in full control of Her dick), i've been filled with the constant sense of submission, of being controlled 24/7. It's a wonderful feeling. Her dick actually feels like it's not quite part of my body. i have a strong sense that, although connected, it is somehow separate. i am constantly aware of it, constantly feeling it swell, constantly feeling Her will, constantly feeling erotic. The next time i see Her, i will have to ask if i can kiss Her feet in gratitude.
i do have one question that i need to ask Her: it's not clear if i can masturbate (without cumming, of course) outside the prescribed 15 minutes in the morning and 15 minutes in the evening. You might ask why i would do that, given how it might make me a nervous wreck. all i can say is that when it comes to mastubation, i am a complete slut. That said, i could see myself wanking for hours if i couldn't cum - not to mention that i would probably be all the happier if my masturbation was controlled even further. In any event, i going to assume that i can only masturbate at the prescribed times, until I can ask Her. Better safe than sorry.
i think that's it. all i need to do is send Her a link to this site - it's private for now, but i wonder if She would like to invite a friend or two of Hers to follow this blog. Or perhaps She'd like to make the blog public (!)
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