It's been a while, but i am back under contract to S., and I am so insanely content.
She and i went out for drinks last Thursday. i had not seen her in several weeks. i was hoping i could ask her, in fact i was ready to beg her, to take control of my/Her cock.
i don't know that she would have done it had i not asked. and i don't like to think that she does anything because i ask for it. on the other hand, i thought that asking/begging her to take control was appropriately submissive.
i know that it has to be hassle free for her, i.e. something that she enjoys, not another responsibility that amounts to a burden because she has to deal with it - and i know that she take the responsibility end of owning my/her cock very seriously. She's scrupulous that way.
i'm traveling to Europe for work next month, and asked her a week ago or so (via email) if she'd like to meet up while i'm over there because she's mentioned in the past she like to do something like that and that i should let her know if another trip comes up. anyways, she hasn't figured out if she can go or not - she has some family events that might conflict. but on a prior trip to Vegas together (can't remember if i blogged here about that) she took control of my/Her cock 24/7. so, it was sorta in the context of the upcoming trip that i asked if she would take control.
i suggested a short-term contract, so that it would be as little of a concern for her as possible - though the terms of all our contracts have been the same in one particular: she can cancel at anytime, I cannot. Anyways, she agreed and fixed the term at two weeks.
She also specified two-day windows ahead of time during which i would be "free" to do whatever i want. i think that's her way of making sure i get opportunities to jerk off and cum without getting crazy distracted/frustrated. she doesn't want me to get so bent out of shape that work or family stuff suffers as a result. at the same time i think she doesn't want the bother of monitoring my condition. so she sets this schedule ahead of time.
In the past, during our very first contact, she made me go much longer, as much as 2-3 weeks, without cumming. That I KNOW i blogged about. Still, this feels very controlling and frustrating, and i suppose it gives her plenty of room to ramp things up if she pleases.
Update
It's been a few months since I have seen S.
And for the last year or so, there has been no contract between us.
A while back I asked her if she preferred me to be submissive with her all the time, or only "in the bedroom" or something to that effect, as I suspected that was her preference. And she confirmed that was indeed what she preferred.
back under contract!
S. took control of Her/my cock again. It's been almost two years since my last contract with Her, and i am so happy! The minute i handed her the key, a feeling of peace and contentment washed over me.
It started with a trip to Vegas a couple weeks ago, during which i spent the whole time with Her/my cock locked up in a CB cage (and a small hook that threads through the P.A. piercing that effectively renders the cage undefeatable.)
At the end of the trip She took control of Her/my cock going forward, but She only restricted/limited my masturbation, which was a triple relief actually, as i have recently been jerking off 2-3 times a day, which was getting out of hand.
Her rule is that i am allowed to jerk off once every 18 hours, and She did not limit how long each individual session could last. Over the last week or so, i've found that in practice this pretty much guarantees that i can jerk off once a day no matter the schedule of things in my life, but prevents me from jerking off more than once.
She was very clear She doesn't want to restrict any sex i might have with anyone else, as She doesn't want to deal with that.
However, since She is the only person i have been having sex with for the past 8 months, it's not much of a difference to me.
While my last contract with Her was very specifically limited to three months, We/we did not discuss any limit this time, but i am not assuming anything.
i have Her permission to make this blog public, and since this topic for this blog now seems to be alive again, i will see about doing that. i'm a bit nervous about running afoul of Blogger's rules about forbidden content, as i don't want them to turn off and lose this blog and all the posts
It started with a trip to Vegas a couple weeks ago, during which i spent the whole time with Her/my cock locked up in a CB cage (and a small hook that threads through the P.A. piercing that effectively renders the cage undefeatable.)
At the end of the trip She took control of Her/my cock going forward, but She only restricted/limited my masturbation, which was a triple relief actually, as i have recently been jerking off 2-3 times a day, which was getting out of hand.
Her rule is that i am allowed to jerk off once every 18 hours, and She did not limit how long each individual session could last. Over the last week or so, i've found that in practice this pretty much guarantees that i can jerk off once a day no matter the schedule of things in my life, but prevents me from jerking off more than once.
She was very clear She doesn't want to restrict any sex i might have with anyone else, as She doesn't want to deal with that.
However, since She is the only person i have been having sex with for the past 8 months, it's not much of a difference to me.
While my last contract with Her was very specifically limited to three months, We/we did not discuss any limit this time, but i am not assuming anything.
i have Her permission to make this blog public, and since this topic for this blog now seems to be alive again, i will see about doing that. i'm a bit nervous about running afoul of Blogger's rules about forbidden content, as i don't want them to turn off and lose this blog and all the posts
one year later......
The events you are about to read are real. Only the names have been changed. To protect the guilty ;)
It's been a year since these posts were written, all while under a contract with S. Back then, the blog was a private journal, solely written for review by S.
[If you're interested in the whole story, you might read this blog from back to front, since it's not really live anymore. I wonder if there is a tool out there for doing something like that]
Though We/we still see each other (hurray!), S. has never offered me another like contract, and i know better than to ask (or beg). She knows She can place my (Her) cock back under Her control whenever She wants. So, it will happen if/when She wants, and not any sooner.
However, i recently entered and finished a two-week contract, as a Dom this time, with a submissive, by the name of C., that i met on OKcupid, [a good matching site that is geared for vanilla AND poly/kinky people], all with S.'s permission of course.
C. ended up blogging a bit about her experience. So, i asked S. if i could share my old blog posts with C. S. said yes, and told me i could go ahead make the whole blog public. I originally wrote in anonymous form, just to be careful, so i only had to make one small change.
Not that i am a Grateful Dead fan or anything, but what a long strange trip it has been!
It's been a year since these posts were written, all while under a contract with S. Back then, the blog was a private journal, solely written for review by S.
[If you're interested in the whole story, you might read this blog from back to front, since it's not really live anymore. I wonder if there is a tool out there for doing something like that]
Though We/we still see each other (hurray!), S. has never offered me another like contract, and i know better than to ask (or beg). She knows She can place my (Her) cock back under Her control whenever She wants. So, it will happen if/when She wants, and not any sooner.
However, i recently entered and finished a two-week contract, as a Dom this time, with a submissive, by the name of C., that i met on OKcupid, [a good matching site that is geared for vanilla AND poly/kinky people], all with S.'s permission of course.
C. ended up blogging a bit about her experience. So, i asked S. if i could share my old blog posts with C. S. said yes, and told me i could go ahead make the whole blog public. I originally wrote in anonymous form, just to be careful, so i only had to make one small change.
Not that i am a Grateful Dead fan or anything, but what a long strange trip it has been!
the end?
Well, it's a bit anti-climatic, but this appears to be my last blog entry. Our/our 3-month contact is official over after today - in just a little bit actually as it's getting near midnight as i write
i haven't heard from S. in a little more than a week, and i believe that she is either still traveling or more likely in transit back to the States. i'm working in Germany at the moment and won't be back to the States myself for another week.
i masturbated for the required 15 minutes this morning, and yes i am still stuck on having my face buried in S.' pussy. The day since was been a whirlwind of international negotiations that totally occupied me. Tonight i will masturbate again for 15 minutes - but won't cum since i no longer have Her permission.
i don't know what comes next (though, of course, i do have my fantasies), but i do know that i had some of the best times of my life over the last 3 months, all courtesy S. Looking back, it all seems a little unreal, but the memories are so incredibly satisfying. A Jesus-take-me-now feeling if there ever was one.
i am so very grateful to S. Thank You from all of my heart.
Love,
h
i haven't heard from S. in a little more than a week, and i believe that she is either still traveling or more likely in transit back to the States. i'm working in Germany at the moment and won't be back to the States myself for another week.
i masturbated for the required 15 minutes this morning, and yes i am still stuck on having my face buried in S.' pussy. The day since was been a whirlwind of international negotiations that totally occupied me. Tonight i will masturbate again for 15 minutes - but won't cum since i no longer have Her permission.
i don't know what comes next (though, of course, i do have my fantasies), but i do know that i had some of the best times of my life over the last 3 months, all courtesy S. Looking back, it all seems a little unreal, but the memories are so incredibly satisfying. A Jesus-take-me-now feeling if there ever was one.
i am so very grateful to S. Thank You from all of my heart.
Love,
h
the last hurrah
i wanked this morning for the specified 15 minutes. It may be repetitive, but my fantasies centered on serving S., serving Her pussy to be exact.
Tonight i plan on using my very last free pass. i suspect that once i do, life under the contract will be bit odd. It will be very short (only one day left) but completely without any discretion of my own, as i will be completely out of options and so strictly forbidden from cumming.
But for the moment, i have only tunnel vision, and that vision is focused solely on cumming tonight!
Tonight i plan on using my very last free pass. i suspect that once i do, life under the contract will be bit odd. It will be very short (only one day left) but completely without any discretion of my own, as i will be completely out of options and so strictly forbidden from cumming.
But for the moment, i have only tunnel vision, and that vision is focused solely on cumming tonight!
3 down, 1 to go.
Another day, and (for a change!) another orgasm. i used up my 3rd free pass last night, and it was nothing short of glorious. This morning i woke up, masturbated for the required 15 minutes and set off on my way with a big smile plastered on my face.
i only have one free pass left and three days to get through. i suspect that will save it for the day after tomorrow. i still have two free passes to use Her cock with another woman, but sadly it looks like those passes will expire without being used at all.
Masturbating this morning was wonderful - visions of being buried in S.' pussy playing out in my head. What a way to start the day!
i only have one free pass left and three days to get through. i suspect that will save it for the day after tomorrow. i still have two free passes to use Her cock with another woman, but sadly it looks like those passes will expire without being used at all.
Masturbating this morning was wonderful - visions of being buried in S.' pussy playing out in my head. What a way to start the day!
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