back under contract, again (!)

It's been a while, but i am back under contract to S., and I am so insanely content.

She and i went out for drinks last Thursday. i had not seen her in several weeks. i was hoping i could ask her, in fact i was ready to beg her, to take control of my/Her cock.

i don't know that she would have done it had i not asked. and i don't like to think that she does anything because i ask for it. on the other hand, i thought that asking/begging her to take control was appropriately submissive.

i know that it has to be hassle free for her, i.e. something that she enjoys, not another responsibility that amounts to a burden because she has to deal with it - and i know that she take the responsibility end of owning my/her cock very seriously. She's scrupulous that way.

i'm traveling to Europe for work next month, and asked her a week ago or so (via email) if she'd like to meet up while i'm over there because she's mentioned in the past she like to do something like that and that i should let her know if another trip comes up. anyways, she hasn't figured out if she can go or not - she has some family events that might conflict. but on a prior trip to Vegas together (can't remember if i blogged here about that) she took control of my/Her cock 24/7. so, it was sorta in the context of the upcoming trip that i asked if she would take control.

i suggested a short-term contract, so that it would be as little of a concern for her as possible - though the terms of all our contracts have been the same in one particular: she can cancel at anytime, I cannot. Anyways, she agreed and fixed the term at two weeks.

She also specified two-day windows ahead of time during which i would be "free" to do whatever i want. i think that's her way of making sure i get opportunities to jerk off and cum without getting crazy distracted/frustrated. she doesn't want me to get so bent out of shape that work or family stuff suffers as a result. at the same time i think she doesn't want the bother of monitoring my condition. so she sets this schedule ahead of time.

In the past, during our very first contact, she made me go much longer, as much as 2-3 weeks, without cumming. That I KNOW i blogged about. Still, this feels very controlling and frustrating, and i suppose it gives her plenty of room to ramp things up if she pleases.