i went out last night with K. to help her celebrate her birthday. i was hoping she would want to play with me, and we did kiss a bit while out on the town. but when all was said and done she was uncomfortable doing more.
Before She left town S. gave me two limited exemptions to Her general rule that i am not allowed to have sex with other women and in particular not allowed to use Her cock. One of the limitations is that i can only use Her cock for two hours each time. This rule raised all kinds of questions for me (such as: am i allowed to continue to have sex, but without the use of Her cock, when the two hours is up?)
From some other things S. mentioned before She left, i thought that i might get more instructions and hoped that those instructions might clarify things. But while i did receive further instructions from Her, none of them were directly about my conduct with other women.
i wrote Her an email, not expecting a reply since She is off on her adventure, but just in case. And i wrote out how i follow Her rules, hoping to get validation or clarification. But that did not happen.
[but today i did get an email from Her!!!! it was extremely short. She was just checking to make sure that i was all right with everything. I assured that i was sexually suffering, and that in turn made me feel wonderful.]
Anyways, K. has recently started seeing a lover who lives in San Diego. It's a very new relationship, and very undefined, and he's several hundred miles away. The first time K. and i kissed last night, i could tell something was up. So i asked her about it, and she admitted to just figuring things out in the moment. We agreed to play things by ear that night. In the event, by the end of the evening, she found that she was not comfortable doing anything more.
So home i went and exercised one of my four options to cum while masturbating that S. has granted me while she is away.
i have three orgasms left, but there are twelve days left in the contract. so i will have to carefully ration them!!
i still have my two free passes to play with another woman, but with K. not available, i'm not sure who i might hook up with. There's a good chance that masturbating will be the whole of my sex life for the foreseeable future!
vacation rules
It's been several days since i've journaled, so there is a bit to catch up on. A few of those days i spent with Her almost 24/7. Since this blog is written for Her, i won't record much about those days
The day before yesterday, She left to go on a 2-week vacation overseas and won't return to the until the end of the month, (right at the same time as Our/our 3-month contract expires). Just a few days before She returns, i will leave the country for two-week work trip. So, a whole month will pass before i have any chance of seeing Her again, and i suspect that it is likely i may not hear from Her at all while She is traveling.
When i was with Her for those two days, it was close to my perfect fantasy - one of those "jesus take me now" moments.
So, of course, returning to my every day reality of daily masturbation and denial was, to say the least, a huge shock. The "upside" is that i am so highly sexed that, as before, masturbation is itself an erotic drama. i cannot wank but for a few seconds before i have to stop in order to keep from cumming.
Just before She left the country, i received a couple of emails from Her.
One said, in part:
"The schedule of twice a day for 15 min w.out cumming is to continue. However you are going to exercise the option to CUM 4 times in my absences in the next 2 wks (end of contract). You are allowed to be in the company of a woman you already know when CUMMing - hold it. Only one of the 4 events shall qualify for this bonus time."
She is, of course, referring to the masturbation schedule She has had me on for close to 2 months now.
i also received a message from Her directing me to take instructions from Her friend and lover G. [yep, a lot has happened].
And here, in part, is a messages i received from G.
"I want you to start massaging your ass hole for the next two days with just gentle penetration and lube around the opening with one finger. During that time I want you to fantasize about the first time you were successfully fucked in the ass and how good it felt. At the same time, I want you stroking your cock. You will not insert your entire finger into your ass no matter how much you want to do it as you fantasize - your job is to relax your sphincter muscles and create a strong mental desire to be ass fucked."
"For your training to be a success, eventually, I want either me or [S.] to be able to fuck you in the ass and have you cum without stroking your cock. I want the mere act of ass fucking make you cum. This is the ultimate goal. I will help you get there. For now, we must start you slowly and retrain you."
There is even more to report, but i will record that in a later post.
For now, i will say that i couldn't be happier!
The day before yesterday, She left to go on a 2-week vacation overseas and won't return to the until the end of the month, (right at the same time as Our/our 3-month contract expires). Just a few days before She returns, i will leave the country for two-week work trip. So, a whole month will pass before i have any chance of seeing Her again, and i suspect that it is likely i may not hear from Her at all while She is traveling.
When i was with Her for those two days, it was close to my perfect fantasy - one of those "jesus take me now" moments.
So, of course, returning to my every day reality of daily masturbation and denial was, to say the least, a huge shock. The "upside" is that i am so highly sexed that, as before, masturbation is itself an erotic drama. i cannot wank but for a few seconds before i have to stop in order to keep from cumming.
Just before She left the country, i received a couple of emails from Her.
One said, in part:
"The schedule of twice a day for 15 min w.out cumming is to continue. However you are going to exercise the option to CUM 4 times in my absences in the next 2 wks (end of contract). You are allowed to be in the company of a woman you already know when CUMMing - hold it. Only one of the 4 events shall qualify for this bonus time."
She is, of course, referring to the masturbation schedule She has had me on for close to 2 months now.
i also received a message from Her directing me to take instructions from Her friend and lover G. [yep, a lot has happened].
And here, in part, is a messages i received from G.
"I want you to start massaging your ass hole for the next two days with just gentle penetration and lube around the opening with one finger. During that time I want you to fantasize about the first time you were successfully fucked in the ass and how good it felt. At the same time, I want you stroking your cock. You will not insert your entire finger into your ass no matter how much you want to do it as you fantasize - your job is to relax your sphincter muscles and create a strong mental desire to be ass fucked."
"For your training to be a success, eventually, I want either me or [S.] to be able to fuck you in the ass and have you cum without stroking your cock. I want the mere act of ass fucking make you cum. This is the ultimate goal. I will help you get there. For now, we must start you slowly and retrain you."
There is even more to report, but i will record that in a later post.
For now, i will say that i couldn't be happier!
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